not again!

I think I should rest..

Positive Thinking

Hi! I'm recovering.. :) well, after months of stress.. finally I want to cope it..really2 cope it I mean. I discovered my problem is that I'm easily hurted.. when something went wrong, I'll feel a great burden.. I'm deeply wounded.. even something small.. so.. I can't make that problem just go away.. what can I do is.. think positive.. though I struggle.. I'll manage.. becoz what I wanna achieve right now needs a huge amount of sacrifation from me.. I wanna achieve my dreams.. they're almost impossible.. but I'll keep praying and praying.. and believe in my dreams coz they're not silly nor selfish.. I knew it.. from the beginning.. God'll help me.. He'll guide me with His love.. I believe that.. that's why I keep praying.......

Exam Results.. beware!

Hiya! nice day everyone.. :)
yesterday I skipped school.. as I planned :) but I don't actually skipped school becoz I planned to.. it was becoz I was sick.. so can't help.. I couldn't sleep from 5 am till 8 am.. and then I managed to sleep from 8 till 1.30 pm.. hohoho.. felt good after that..
So.. today's school again.. got some results for the exam.. english I got 85% (kinda bad.. becoz of my summary and lit.. I hate summary..urg..and I haven't even finish read my lit. novel..I supposed to finish read it months ago..lazy me.. and serve me rite for the marks.. huhuh).
Then.. I got 68% for Biology.. not that bad.. the highest is 74 something... and I got highest for Physic! well.. not sure actually becoz we got the result yesterday and i was absent.my friends told me so.. but still not sure.. maybe not.. but hope so.. hahah.
and the rest of the results that I've got..

English- 85%
English For Science- 86%
History- 74%
Biology- 68%
Add Math- 42% (haha.. at least I passed.. more than half at my class failed)
Chemistry- 43% (I guess I'm the worst gurl..don't care tho.. hate chemistry since I was born :p ..I understand nothing.. don't bother to. urgh,, I have to change!)
Quran & Sunnah Education- 82%

so.. just wait for other results.. it will be confirmed next week.. report card,next weekend.
Hmm.. overall.. I'm not that excellent but still okay.. I'll improve.. that's a promise!
I read a part of 7 habits of highly effective teens.. and I must say that the book is impressively good! I recommend every teen to read it! so.. let us together be a highly effective teens! haha.. need a positive thinking.. (i got to work on on that.. haha).. abs choose to be cool! (my new motto,, choose to be cool..yeah.. don't choose to be mad..or choose to be depressed..hehe.. be cool..and don't let others ruin your day..pray 4 me!)

School again!

hey.. it's school again tomorrow.. huh,, actually I've started school since thursday (additional classes) but tomorrow school'll starts oficially.. it'll be boring.. argh.. hating school..

..something I wrote when i was bored

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i have to get over it.. think too much about something.. worry to much over something that couldn't be changed...blaming myself..angry to myself..it drives me crazy. got me depressed. Cayo mai! gambatte! 8(^_^) (smiley's doing thumb's up)

pray for me.. some people said my dreams are too big.. so hard to achieve.. said I won't achieve them... I wanna prove that I can.. I keep on praying.. cause I really wanna achieve all of them... really really.. i'm aware it's so hard.. near impossible.. but still... i want it! i'm lovin' it :)
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that's all.. I'm a boring person ..hush

my parents aren't here.. they go to Kelantan (a state in north malaysia)... they took the flight!! I'm jealous over my sisters who go there too.. huhuh.. what's wrong with me? .. maybe I'll skip school tomorrow.. my bro'll take me to school tomorrow with my fellow sisters that don't go to kelantan.. huhuh.. I have many sisters.. hmm.. my parents have gone for 3 days.. we r enjoying ourselves here.. buying snacks..many of them indeed.. watch tv all the times..haha.. watch harry potter.. watch spy kids again.. and when I'm bored.. I'll reread harry potter and the order of the phoenix.. haha.. what's wrong with me? urgh.. feel stupid.. pardon me.. feel very stupid..

oh some more that I wrote..
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written on 12th June eve…

I don’t understand. What do you want to tell me actually...? I couldn’t figure it out. What’s this all about? Am I missing something? ( my addition now: wrote this becos my friend's telling me something that I couldn't understand.. something regarding her problems.. I wanna help)
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I want to be real tough… though I won’t feel guilty if I cried sometimes… I’ll permit myself to do that... because crying is not a sign of weakness... It gives me strengths...
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I hate my friends because they never understand... I hate my siblings because they detest me... I hate my teachers because they don’t care… but mostly I hate myself because I’m too weak... too afraid to face my own problems… I hate myself because I hate everyone… although they all are innocent. Shouldn’t blame them... but I can’t help it... I created false reasons to hate them... just to satisfy my anger... My anger towards myself
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I’m a hypocrite person. I hate it. I become like this... because people made me do it... be someone else... and now it’s hard to be myself again… do whatever I want... do what ever I think is right.. I’m a totally different person... I can’t recognize myself now... Who am I...?.. and why am I blaming others? Weren’t all these my own choices?
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okay.. that's truly all.. haha.. someother day I'll add more.. well.. I know they aren't something that anyone wanna read.. but I wanna put it up anyway.. I don't care.. this is my bloggggg!

long way home

I'm in KL rite now... today is my fourth day here.. I'll be back tomorrow.. so..till then.. enjoy your holiday! ( i can write much now coz this isn't my computer)

I don't understand anything that happend around me right now.. I came back from the camp and I cried.. many thoughts came by disturbing my soul.. i'm suffering.. don't even know why.. maybe I know.. but it isn't certain.. there's too many things.. many thing's possible