Sunday, March 28, 2004

Hello! okay.. I have to be more 'polite' with my words I think.. haha.. well.. the last post is actually a fact.. but I know I shouldn't express it like that.. feel guilty.. haha. So.. today I attended that award giving ceremony.. It went well... successfully got up on stage twice without falling.. haha.. and then I helped my club sold some foods whilst recess.. cake and stuffs..
Just watched Naruto episode 76.. aa.. I'm longing for Naruto fight.. but it didn't happen in this epi.. just many flashbacks.. grr.. next episode I expect.. and then I read parfait tic volume 8.. chapter 3.. and I hate it because Fuuko confessed to herself (only) that she likes Ichi.. I don't like that.. poor Daiya.. ohh.. some comp prob!

Tuesday, March 23, 2004

School is boring!! most of the teachers didn't turn up in class because they are busy with the award giving ceremony that will be held this sunday.. school is very boring! if the teachers did turn up.. it will still be boring! i hate school! it get me depressed.. I hate science subjects.. and I hate all subjects.. and I hate school...
and I hate to feel like this.. why can't I feel like everyone else?

Saturday, March 20, 2004

omg!! omg!! I just read Naruto Manga chap 209! and it was awesome!!! yeah! yay to Rock Lee!! yay to Naruto! go Naruto.. go get sasuke! oh.. sasuke.. you baka!
Hi! I changed the template! surprised? well.. me too.. I did this last night.. 12 midnight! I've never planned this.. but I just dunno what to do.. I just played around frontpage.. and I thought this design is okay.. so I published it! Oh yea.. I put my pic.. eating icecream..eheh.. I dunno if that pic will stay there forever... I'll think again.. maybe I'll change it with another pic instead.. Oh yeah.. I remove all the links.. just put my links.. and Videa's of course.. I took his graphic for the background there.. it is beautiful.. isn't it? This design is simple.. that's why I like it..
Oh yeah.. I've bought a ring sketch book.. hahah.. well.. actually my sis bought it for me.. teehee... just now!
Hmm... tomorrow I'll having Physic's tuition.. aaa.. I don't feel like going.. because tomorrow is polling day! my parents must be very busy.. and then there'll be no one to drive me there.. ahha... I'll call my friend to confirm it.. I just don't want to go..

Friday, March 19, 2004

A boring day!
I need to do my homeworks!! school will start next monday.. aah.. I hate school.
Why can't I just continue studying arts in some college instead of learning all these science things! i don't want to furthur my study in science major.. I'll make sure that I'll get a place in some art college.. oversea!

Thursday, March 18, 2004

A PHONE CALL
I called you because...
I just wanna let you know that I'm still alive..
And still have the strenght to say hi to you..

And as a reminder for me that I still have a friend that I can call when I'm really feeling down.. when I feel like a dumb.. when I'm alone..crying.. when I really feel like dying and really wanna die..
I was just hoping you'll cheer me up a bit..by just listen to me.. lend your ears to hear my misery.. I just want your concentration... a bit of your precious time..
You don't need to advise me.. nor understand me. I don't really need that.. I don't think so.. I just want you to listen to me.. is it too much? is it too much??

Oh.. by the way.. I'm really sorry I disturb you... I'll never do that again for the rest of the holiday.. seeya at school..bye!

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

It's wednesday.. and I haven't got my homeworks done yet! I have did some of them.. and they are hard..I'm to lazy to open my reference books.. so I just did what I already know.. and that's so little.. pathetic!(this is for BIOLOGY!) Just before I log on to this comp.. my spirit to do the homework came.. but when I saw my table is in a mess.. the spirit vanished.. just like that! the table is really in a mess ..my older sis put her laptop and other things on it.. I've told her to put her things away.. but she just ignored it.. and I'm so mad at her rite now! I'll blame her if my teacher scolded me because I didn't do her works.
Oh yea.. my bro has arrived.. what else happend today? nothing much.. I just watched Agent Cody Banks and a chinese movie named 'Turn left turn right' (or maybe the title is Turn Right TUrn Left.. I'm not sure!)... these movies are good! enjoyed watching them..
If anyone read my malay blog.. they will know I'm in a very sad mood nowadays.. this holiday really gives me alot of time to think.. and I just think about sad things! pathetic again.. so now I'm feeling down and really want to call my friend.. just wanna chat.. talk about how is she.. haha..
I feel sick..
Okay.. chiao.

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

I am a HYPOCRITE person! and I hate it!!
Hi.. I've scanned the sketches I told before. So here they go..
The first one is my friend's request (nonie). She is the director whilst I was drawing this. Hahah.. she told me to add this and that.. I call this Broke Up!. LOL! Hmm.. The sketch isn't that clean :P. Okay.. the second one is a sketch I named 'Lovely'. I like it.. it's lovely :).
Hmm.. today is quite boring.. the computer is so moody! always shut down itself while I'm playing!! It's too much! luckily my internet connection is okay...
My dad and 3 sis went to KL this morning to fetch my lil bro at his hostel. Well.. because he's in Tahfiz school (school to memorizing the Quran).. he get shorter holiday! hehe.. poor him.
I'm thinking to buy a decent sketchbook.. when is that? ahaha.. I'm too lazy.. the shop is so near! just 2 blocks away.. lazy me! well.. drawing on A4 papers is not suitable.. I'm the main user for the a4 papers in this house.. use it more for drawings (or scribbling to be precise!) than for printing..
You know what.... there's so much happening around here.. problems and works regarding school.. it's too stressful sometimes.. I think it can be good if I got amnesia and could forget all of these things.. hahah.. and start a new life! yeah.. maybe new probs.. hhmmmm....
Okay.. I'll step out now!

Monday, March 15, 2004

hi.. good day everyone! mm.. today is monday isn't it? ooh.. I spend these three days did nothing useful! hmm. tell ya what.. I watched tons of movies that I didn't have the chance to watch before this.. like Brother Bear.. Pirates of Carribean.. The Tuxedo.. and many others.. I can't really remember.. (short-term memory loss! haha). I went to Phyics tuition at my friend's yesterday.. in the eve, I spend times in my study.. scribbling scribbling and scribbling! wasted 3 piece of A4 paper! well.. I can consider that as practising.. lol. So.. this weekend is the election day for Malaysia. My mum is busy campaigning for the opposition party. Eheh.. I'm with her! well.. her bestfriend is the candidate. Okay.. got to go.. my grandma just arrived.. and we r waiting for my aunt from Indonesia.. she'll be arriving soon!

Friday, March 12, 2004

Hello!! guess what? a week holiday!!! yay! I have waited for this for long! but of course.. i got tons of homeworks!!!! sigh.. every subject i'm tellin' ya! but still.. at least I got the holiday..
I draw a lot nowadays don't u think? well.. dunno why.. just the spirit like rosing in me! haha.. well.. I drew some more these 2 days.. but I don't think I'll scan it now.. I don't feel like it although the drawings look satisfying. Maybe I'll do it tomorrow.. or other times..
I'm not in the rite mood now.. kinda feel sad now.. confuse maybe.. I dunno.. hmm.. just thinking some probs.. nothing serious really..

Tuesday, March 09, 2004

Hulo.. I'm so tired and sleepy.. but my father forbid me from sleeping.. it is not good to sleep after asar time (in the eve) .. he said spare it for tonight!.. so here I am.. :)
You know what? this morning.. I dislocated my neck! ahhaha.. j/k... but still.. it was so painful that I cried! it is still hurt.. but has decreased... actually this morning I made a mental note to go to the clinic and x-ray my neck when I come back! ahhaha.. mental me.
guess what? I got the scanner back! so I have scanned my latest drawings.. I have 4.. so here there are..
First is FUNKY.. ehhe.. she is quite sexy.. feel guilty drawing her afterwards.. but it turned out to be ok.. I have bad times drawing her boots.. (her legs to be precise!) .. if you noticed.. her legs seem small.. but maybe it is just me!
Second one is NEAT! .. I like this a lot! she is so neat.. well at least I think she is... :) what else about her? oh yea.. her legs.. didn't look rite.. I'll repair it if I could..
Third one is RIGHT HERE WAITING ... just drew her on a bench.. and wrote one part of right here waiting by richard marx. Her face is so sad though..
The fourth one is HIJAB GURL.. yeah.. a very pious looking girl.. :) wearing hijab.. and she is so neat too! I like it :)
Oh yeah.. if you noticed.. I drew all the girls with 'manga' eyes.. if you know what I mean.. (big round eyes)
Okay.. got to go!

EDIT
Oh I just found out at school today... we will having a award giving ceremony ( annual activity for giving awards at excellent students) on 28th March.. and I'll receive 2 awards.. for Excellent Form 4 students (last year) and another one for Special Islamics Certificate... well.. I'm one of the students that receive it... students who got between 12 to 5A's (for form 4ers) got the chance to receive the awards..I only got 8A's though... not that excellent.. but still okay..
oh.. I'm really tired now..

Saturday, March 06, 2004

Good morning! nothing muvh to say.. although there r lots things happend recently.. I'm just too tired to type.. just drop in to 'just update'..lol.. my life is boring.. really.. well.. recently I made some poster/ cards / bookmarks using photoshop.. for school.. because we planned to make 'em and sell them among the students.. ahh.. I'm so moody nowadays..

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

Hello! aaa.. I'm fasting again today. Now waiting for the eating time (lol).. still 45 minutes left. Mmm.. today I got some of the test results.. for English and EnglishForScience&Technology (EST).. I got 81 for english :( .. and 76 for EST! [even more :( ]well.. I must say that the tests were so hard! just hoping SPM aren't that hard.. my teacher is strict! (haha.. I sound like a person that don't want to admit her dumbness!)
So.. yesterday I watched Mona Lisa Smile and White Oleander. I really like White Oleander.. it's a sad story about a girl named Astrid.. her mother was jailed because murdering her bf.. and from that time on.. Astrid suffered lots.. poor her.. she got foster family.. but ended up being shot by her foster mother (because of jealousy).. and then she stayed at a house called MAC where all the abandoned teens were.. she have no friends but one.. then she got another foster family.. but the mother ended up killing herself because of stress.. astrid was so distress.. crying.. then she went back to MAC before she got another foster family.. aah.. I'm not a good story teller.. you got to watch it to understand the storyline.. poor astrid.. but one thing I really like about her is her talents in arts.. she really like to sketch.. drawing people around her.. so beautiful! I admire it..
Oh..k.. I've got to go..