Mukodono

Happy National Day! oh, I missed the fire works last night. I slept quite early (10 pm). All my siblings gathered at my parents bedroom's window (very huge window) and they all watched the fire works at 12.00 am. Hm, nothing special this national day. Boring!

I have a good news! guess what? I don't have to go to the PKN !!(program khidmat negara/national service). I'm so happy. My best friend, Aliya has to go. Poor her. She's so soft and all. Can't imagine she there.

My computer is having problem. Virus I think. Always jammmmmmm! annoying.

My favourite drama has ended! esh. It's a Japanese drama, Mukodono 2003 (or the 8tv translate it as 'My Husband 2003'). I've always loved japanese dramas. They all know how to capture people's feeling. You could almost cry in all episodes. Haha. And the protagonist is so handsome, acted by Tomoya Nagase.

Ok, I've to go. I know, boring post.....

Missing babies

I went to Kulai Hospital today. My aunt has given birth her 6th child! and the baby is a boy! he's so cute and chubby and fair! oh, my mum hasn't given birth for more than 6 years.How I miss babies. I took a couple of pics of him. I don't know wether I'll be able to post it here considering my dad will upload the photos in his laptop. I have to transfer the photos using thumb drive, need some work to do, and I'm kinda lazy. But I really wanna show off the baby.
I have arabic class tomorrow, will consume all day! and I'll have physics and biology tuition on monday, consume all day too. Then, holiday on tuesday, back to school on wednesday!
Arr... I have many homework that I haven't finished yet. But I think it's okay, because when the school starts, the trial will also starts, no time for any classes anymore. Haha. (evil me). When the trial end, we will only have a month! a month! -i repeat- a month! until SPM. oh, how time flies. Half of me wants the time to pass quickly, and half of me wants the SPM never come. Geez, what a dilemma. haha. No need to think about it.

Linkies

I put the links up! I was too bored and didn't know what to do. I just cleaned my study, rearranged the books again (they will get messy back in no time!).
Hoho, you know what, I thought I have forgotten all about HTML because it has been quite a long time since I used it, but then, I guess I can still remember a bit.
The links explained much about my interest - Arts, Harry Potter, United Kingdom, Parfait Tic and Naruto. And it's not organised, spare me for being lazy to organise them. I just wrote anything that popped out from my mind.
Oh, btw, I always go to educationuk to browse for universities and colleges in the UK. Just day dreaming, lol. But I wish it will come true. I really really really want to go there.
Yesterday I accidently slept so early around 8 o'clock. Then I dreamt about ghost and all sorts or weird things! haha, I woke up at 3 0'clock then I remembered I hadn't pray Isya' yet. Oh, If I didn't dream all that, maybe I wouldn't wake up at all! Thank God!
School will starts on the 1st of September (Wednesday), and we'll having our trial on Thursday! Oh, wish me luck.

SPM's timetable

My SPM's timetable. I summarised it :P The actual timetable is too long with so many unrelated subjects. So, for my own reference, I made this! btw, I take 12 subjects.

Mission Failed

I didn't follow the timetable given! I didn't finish the works! I did some, but not quite finish. Hish, I guess, for today, MISSION FAILED!
Btw, we ate Pizzas again yesterday. Yummy yummy!
I lack inspiration this week! I need to do something but can't figure out what it is.
Hmm, I'm so bored. There's no good dramas/movies on the tv. No new book, so boring!
My knee is hurt. I don't remember I tripped or collied with any wall or something, but I'm in pain!!!
I bought new sandal two days ago! hoho.. guess the price?!

Baby

Oh... who's this huge baby??? so cute isn't she? but, dirty photo... hmm, should clean it up in photoshop.

Can you kill me calmly?

extract from Naruto chapter 227. Can get the manga at www.narutofan.com

Home Alone

I've been left alone with my maid for two days until sunday night! Actually my dad asked me to skip school on Friday, but I didn't want to. So, I'm willing to be left here although it's so boring. Tho, I really wanted to go to KL too. But, sigh... there was something at school that I couldn't miss! I've asked my good friend to come over so that we can study together or something. Hmm, since there's only me at home, my maid doesn't cook much. She actually asked me what I want. So, what's for lunch? I think I might order some Domino's pizzas, double decker beef delight! yummy!(my dad left RM 100 for me!). Hmm, it's getting boring to eat rice everyday, hahaha.

Oh, actually we r having holiday now until the 1st of September (like returning to hogwarts.lol.). But I don't feel so great because we got tons of homeworks and exercises sheets for every subjects. We also have some classes on the 28th,29th and 30th Aug. The teachers even set us timetable for this holiday. We can't go anywhere but bring along homeworks too.Well, at least we got breaks.

Dehydrated

Argh! *stretching* hoh, I'm so tired! having headache but not severe. Well, it's because I'm fasting today and I don't even have my sahur (eat before subuh time). I never sahur unless it's Ramadan but then it made me having headache! feel really dehydrated.
School's so stressful for everyone now especially for us, form 5. Some people started to cry.. huhu. not me, eh! But I'm stressed with all the pressure the teachers put on us. It's good though, to maintain the momentum to keep our study on. Much to revise! I feel like there isn't enough time. But then, it's never too late. Just revise as many subjects you can till the last minutes, Some people said study last minute won't work. But I don't know, it works for me! heheh... but do not follow my footsteps, guys! who knows God wants to teach me a lesson that He failed me in SPM?! oh Auzubillah min zalik! Oh GOD, please help me in SPM!
Oh, I'm so tired that I can't even think what more to write. Pen off!

Fragrance of LOVE

I drew this yesterday. Argh! I broke my own promise! I was just too bored. Sorry! on the contrary, I really really like this drawing, though it's not that impressive (my drawing's never impressive!). I could almost smell the flower too! can you? Actually I tried to submit this to deviantart. But I couldn't access the site today. Don't know what's wrong with it. I'll do it later. Oh, try the full-view!

By the way, what's up with me today? Nothing much. Usual routine. Boring life. Just study. Oh, new chapter of Parfait Tic! . Uhm, when I read the newspaper yesterday, I came across KBU college and Sunway College advertisment. They offer Pre-U programmes like AUSMAT, A level, and all such things. They r useful if you want to study overseas. I'm kinda interested. I've e-mailed them for more info. But then, maybe JPA's scholarships programme is better. I'll find out!

Health Check-Up

Yesterday we had a whole day for physics classes. From 8.30 am till 4 pm. Just Physics! Luckily we just answered questions and stuffs. Not distressing at all. Oh, I love physics!

I went to my friend's house for lunch. And I borrowed her novel , 'Rindu Yang Pergi'. The novel is not really good when it comes to the writing style part, but what I like is the story itself. The theme. It's so sad that I cried a lot reading it. Reading how the protagonist suffered with her sickness that called Acute Intermittent Porphyria just caught me. As I said the writing style sucks. I almost gave it up half-way. But because I really wanted to know the ending, I read it anyway.

Also, yesterday I went to a health check-up. Well, not a thorough check-up, just having my blood test and blood-pressure test. It is a programme held by our local Masjid. So, the result is ok, my sugar amount is normal (5.3), my blood pressure is normal but a little high (130/90) but still ok. Maybe because of stress the nurse said. Oh, and I took a health assesment test and everything is at low risk! cheers!

Today,Yesterday,and Tomorrow things!

Another sick day of me. I wasn't feeling well at school today. But not really serious. I still managed to learn and did the exercises given, listened to the presentation. I just slept for a couple of minutes in biology's class.
Despite all the sickness, I actually have a great day today. We laughed a lot. Telling some ghost stories that happened at IIUM (my big sister and my friend's sis are studying there), ate a lot of junk foods, telling jokes (of course).

My mum made pizzas today! Yummy although it's just a simple sardine pizza. My mum is gifted! She can cook everything and end up with a very yummy cooking! She said cooking is an art. Just add this and that .. walla!

Umm... I can feel that my body is rotting. Lol! I feel sick everyday! I wonder what's wrong with me. Mm, maybe I should go and see some doctors or something. And maybe actually there's nothing wrong with me, lol!

Oh I remember something! here it is..it happened yesterday..
I was kinda jumping around in my mum's room, wanted to go to the bathroom...
My mum: Hish, maybe there's something wrong with you mentally. That's why you're acting like a kid!
Me: Hahaha... maybe you are right mum!
(My mum shook her head)
LOL!

Yesterday my math teacher set us a test. And I got 93%. Quite excellent. Oh.. I just hope I get an equal marks for add math too (it's not gonna happen). Oh no! tomorrow I'll have an essay test for english! I hate writing essay when the time is given because there's never enough time for me! I couldn't think when I look at the time. Psychological problem,that is!

PMS, you are killing me!

Oww! I'm sick today. Very very sick. PMS. It's too painful for me. I still am sick but not as serious as this afternoon. This is the worst PMS I've ever had. Maybe because I didn't take any pills (pain killer) that I usually take before this. I've cried, I've screamed, I've vomited, I've slept, I've tried several oils (some of them even spilled and stained my bedsheet), I've imagined my dreams come true (to distract me), but they all didn't really work. I prayed non-stop so that the pain gone. Thank-God it has decreased. And thank-God today is Saturday or else I'll be sick in school and that will only worsen my illness (the stress of being at school and fall sick!). Actually I did go to school today for my physic tuition. But just in the morning. Not too bad yet. Hmm.. imagined 6 hours of non-stop pain! I don't know if I could stand this PMS every month! My mum said the one and only cure for this is to get married! haha.. what am I supposed to do? I'm still sooooo young. lol.
Oh.. talk about getting married (hohoho), well, my cousin is just married this morning. But I didn't go due to the class. Only my mum and big brother went there. My dad was having this achitectural course. (Oh, and now my mum and dad are having dinner in Putri Pan Pacific Hotel!)
Ok... talk about my cousin, her husband was so desperate to get married before this. They didn't even know each other. The husband told his mother to find someone so that he can get married. he said he really want to have a wife. He doesn't want a girlfriend because he said it's so wrong. But he wanted a woman in his life. So his mother searched for him... and then long story... and then at last they found my cousin. She just graduated from KISDAR college. She is beautiful and noble! she knows everything about the kitchen and a very good muslim too. So the conclusion is, if we be patient and obey the rules, stay behind the line, we will get what we want! like my cousin's husband.
So, today I have wasted half of the day sleeping/screaming. I need to revise and study! Hmm, there's really no time for arts anymore (well, except scribbling my reference books when I was bored and felt dumb). Three months to go!!! and I'll be freeeeee! Ganbatte!
Ah, this pain is killing me. Pen off!

The Reason

I need to learn how to calm down. Everytime I have to present something or say something aloud in class I started to shake .. and my hands will turn real cold. I hate that, I will say rubbish things and people will start to laugh at me especially the boys. An even my closest friends laugh at me. There are times when I feel very depressed because even my friends didn't support me. But I am learning now. I hope I could be a better person tomorrow. A person that doesn't need her friends' support much. Just stand on my own with God by my side. I wish I could be that kind of person tomorrow, for real.

I'm not a perfect person
there's many things that I wish I didn't do
but I continue learning
I never meant to say those things to you
and so I have to say before I go
that I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
to change who I use to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
it's something that I must to live with everyday
and all the things that I've put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
and be the one who catches all of your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
to change who I use to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you

Oh.. I like the lyric. Especially the 'catches all you tears' part.
At school this morning my history teacher, Mr Ezaidin told me that I'm talented and I shouldn't put it at waste. I should continue to shine it. Lol. (Actually he saw my 'eye' drawing that I did in a presentation paper). I'm flattered but I know that's all God's gift to me. There's nothing to proud of, besides there's thousand people in this world who is more gifted than me. But that doesn't mean I should put what I've got at rest. I'll continue practicing although I won't take a major in art.
I've been thinking what should I do to give something to the Muslim community. Or something that I could do with my talent to be use as a platform to spread the da'wa. Because God didn't give me this talent for nothing. My mission for life is to do what God ask and what He wants me to do.
I've observed that people nowadays have forgotten what's their life purpose. They just live to fulfil their heart's desire. Never think or bother to remember what exactly they should do. That's why many social problems occur such as suicide, rape, murder, sex b4 marriage and all sorts of sinful things. Many muslim have forgotten their way of life, be a muslim just in names but they don't perform what they should've done as a muslim (solat, cover their bodies, etc etc..).
I could cry just to think of it. Wake up oh muslims!

Oh, it's maghrib time already. Pen off!